This ones
coming a lot quicker then I planned, mostly because I just found myself talking
to family about this plan and finding myself pondering it so I thought, well
why not talk about things now.
I’d also like
to say I’m going to just talk about the big things that changed my life for the
better. it might not seem that way a lot of the times, but everything that I’ve
putting up here is about what I considered a turning point but more so
something I’m proud of or, well, changed me.
The
10 Year Plan
The other day
I found myself talking to my in-laws about what my 10 year plan was and I found
myself justifying it.
No that’s not
right, it was more trying to resay what I was saying. Justifying how I’d said
it. and I’m not in any way saying it was to them I’ve had thing problem, but
the last of the many times I’ve spoken of my plan and ending up not really
saying what it was. Or not saying it in a way that will stop people scrunching
up there nose at me.
The reason
I’ve got a ten year plan where most people wouldn’t think of such a thing,
wouldn’t have such a goal is because of children and depression.
I’ve mention this
before though I think I’ll say it again because it’s important to the whole
suture of what I’m saying, but I was 19 when I feel pregnant, hell, if I think
on it, and probably do some maths, I hadn’t even hit my 19th birthday when I
did the test and found out that I was.
I’ll preface
this by saying I was of the oldest out of my friends, and therefore spend the
first 6 months of my 18th not doing legal things (as in Australia we are
legally allowed to drink by said age). I had 5 months between when my best
friend at the time turned 18 and I became pregnant.
More so
children were never the plan. I never wanted to be a mother. Didn’t care for
children any more then I cared for animals. They were just what other people
wanted, never me. And I ended up young and pregnant and well the start of me
being a mum.
Now don’t get
me wrong, I’m happy now and I’m liking this life just as much as I’d like the
other life I wanted to live, but the way I see it, the way I talk to people
about it is like being a mum is a struggle I can’t wait to get out from under.
Which I
can’t. I can’t wait until my kids are old enough that they don’t need me for
most of their daily life. I can’t wait until they don’t need me for more than a
weekly phone call when I can get away from the life of children and having
people who care where the hell I am ever second of the day when they are in a
place they should be able to see me.
I love my
kids, I’m glad I had them, but my thoughts on children are still the same.
Other than my own and my brothers (and sisters when I get them) children are
just …
So in order
to be able to do everything I want to do, like go to America in my 40th year,
pick up April and head around the USA for a while then I have to have a plan
set in. and being as the year I turn 40 my son would have turned 20 and my
daughter 18, it can happen if I have the money. So I have my plan, which
entails me making my company something.
So my plan is
quite simple.