my sex scenes (more so a bitch)

I'm just not sure if I'm any good at writing sex scenes

The thing is that it’s not really about the sex and yet it’s everything about it. Making the scene hot, heavy, atmospheric. Light and free. It’s all about the right type of sex in the right places.

But then I’m not writing porn, so it’s also got to have a lot more in it than sex. It’s got to have emotions and suspense, even if it gets you into their pants, there just has to be something in it. Something that makes you hot along with a need to have someone love you—no , want you just as much.

I sat all this because it’s what I hope it will be like to read my book. And I think I suck at it!

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Yeah, yeah, you’ll hear me say it a lot. I’m not the biggest fan of myself and I have heaps of problems with the fact that I write with a young pen—which would work well, and I’ve never a problem with me voice when writing a YA book, but I want to write a romance and...

Mum says not to worry, but I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, she a fan of my style of writing. She would like nothing more than for me to write something she would enjoy reading—I’m working on it, but as things happen I’m too morbid for that crap.

Still I’m hesitant and yet I’m doing it. I have the stories, have the characters. I just don’t know about my sex scenes

Now I’m not lacking the experience of sex (well...maybe I am, if you need it all from verity) but that doesn’t—ha, just thought. Wonder if you could pass off cheating as research? I’m not game to try. Hell, why bother, I love the man I’m with couldn’t really see myself sexing up someone else. But I wonder how many people have used that as an excuse?

Okay, okay, so a little ramble in the side tracked way, but hell, it’s me, ya may as well get us to it.

So I did what they said—went out, with my fingers (sounds bad)—and got me a little bit of info about sex. You know, learnt some things I can never be relearned and some interesting shit but let’s not get into all the technical stuff, because that’ what I learnt. I did it in 2 steps. 1^st learnt the biological facts about how everything worked, the cherry popping and all that crap.

2^nd went did a porn search—I’m not a virgin when it comes to porn, so it was a 30 sec look at different styles and I had them. More so (and now you’re heading into how my mind ticks) I’m the type of person that thinks about the sex of things (when it’s pushed in my face). my fav, or most spoken about, is the whole Twilight Vampire sex—like really, there made of stone, so there, what, hard all the time, and like, they shouldn’t really be able to get off, not climax off. And what’s the fun if you can’t spew your seeds, which hits of everything, is the point of the whole experience—that and it’s fucking awesomely pleasurable. All of it is.

And my second one is about (now I say this with only curiosity in my tone and eyes, for I don’t really care, just can’t get it, can’t piece them together) obesely fat people fucking. I can get a one smaller than the other, but not two over size people together.

So yeah, I have that horny type of mind that thinks about positions and sex in a full form. I also learnt about certain types of sex because 2 of my characters are heading that way.

Still I’m not sure if I can write them, if I can put that tension, heat, lust. I don’t know if I can put the emotion in it. The need to be with that other person. I don’t know if I can write it. Not for fact that I can’t but that it doesn’t translate on paper at all.

Well that’s it for now

Thanks for your time