Who is next…. I think we end up with Chris from Taking Control of My Werewolf
I thought I’d start off with
him as he’s actually one for the harder characters to write. Not because he’s
not a talker but Chris is meant to be from a part of my personality that I have
managed, for the most part, to get rid of.
He’s my defensiveness.
The thing is, I did get rid
of a lot of it and so that burning need to…defend myself, to create these
massive bubbles of tension and conflict in order to defuse my own stupidity
wasn’t there anymore.
It was hard writing.
I wanted him to be spark, to
be hate filled and to carry a secret around that he thinks will ruin his life
if it gets out.
I have re-wrote and re-wrote
the sex scene three times before I settled on the one we have. and this is
because of two reasons
1) I started off this book
with a sex scene, one that ends up more in a side story then what was necessarily
there. The scene was about Chris being tied up and a leather belt ripped his
skin away.
He loved it, every glorious
moment of it, because he’d kink is pain. Full stop. He’s not a sub in any other
way but pain, and that works for him, it worked for the story, until I met
Eamon
2) Eamon.
The thing is I never really saw Eamon until he turned away from the
werewolves and walked himself back into the house where he drank himself to
sleep.
Yeah I got peeks, but
nothing really, because Chris was demanding too much, he wanted pain and Eamon,
though…okay, not his point. Eamon was a Dom and D/s type of dom. So I hate
these two people, suited beautifully together, only they both think they are
one type of person, one type of leather.
Sigh.
So I had this idea of where
they needed to be and I put them there, because it was easy. All I’d written
about them was that one sex scene.
The thing was, it was all
wrong for them, and that bothered me for months after finishing the book, I had
even submitted it before I got a clue and changed the sex scene, and now… it’s
perfect.
Chris, I hated writing every
minute of Chris because even though I was managing to push away all this defensiveness
he made me see things I didn’t want to remember. Let me realise how much it
took over me life. It didn’t tell me anything else, I knew why I was like that,
it was inevitable and I still find myself struggling to bite back the snap when
it rears back up again. To realise I’m not being rational, and all that.
I think tho, it’s was hard because
even though he was meant to have this anger, this defensiveness he is nothing
like me, and a lot of his pain and his need to prove he could help save
everyone. that he was worthy of someone to hold him and reassure him, when he’d
put himself into positions where that would never be given to him.
In the end I think it help
that they both held this different part of the leather world and as they wanted
to hold onto what they had, they craved the other part, they both just needed
someone to open there hearts and let them be who they are meant to be.
And yes, I do see how I’ve
managed to make it about both of them, but unlike a lot of the other couples,
these two…I don’t know, they are one.
Lol, they that couple in
your life that once they are together there isn’t a single one anyone, it’s
both or nothing.
Endnote: I am putting together an anthology
of Moonlit Wolves shorts. At the moment it sits at 11K.
The stories are what I wanted
to put with the books themselves, as they are moments in them – like how Jex
and Matt ended up fucking on the lounge in book 4, or what’s with the tension
between Phil and Craig in book 7.
I also have a few other
shorts, just catching up with all the books.
My question is, what is it
you want? Would you like a sneak peak short of the next book? would you like a
short from inside one of the books we have already seen. do you desperately want
to check in on someone. Now’s your change.
Email me, comment here, or
find me, or a post on FB and tell me what you’d love most in the collection and
I’ll see about helping you out.
This is going to be
published for Christmas, but the end for submitting you thoughts is the end of
May as I’ll be submitting the anthology in July at the latest.
If you need a place to chat
with me about it – and I’d be more than happy to, join my group by clicking here
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