Thursday 15 September 2011

A simple chat


At least that’s what I’m hoping for...

I have just written of my book, getting me right past a real important part of my book, the part that I was stuck with. The annoying part. It’s the one that I have been complaining about for a while – my YA book (it still doesn’t have a name yet), yeah! I’m supper sicked, since I only have just under a month to get the first draft finished so that I can take it on holidays with me where I will scrub at it and re-write and make it better. Make sure everything makes sense and that it all flows.

But it’s not really what I wanted to chat with you all about.

I have this thing I want to bitch about. Though it’s mostly because I’m jealous, so bear with me. And now, that I wish I could do it that way.

So, I don’t understand how people can write books so big that they have to get rid of crap in it to make it a book. I struggle to write enough to fill a book, really the two books that I actually wrote (before this one – you know the done ones) I struggled to get them to a hundred a4 pages, I don’t actually think the second on has that many. I can’t honestly remember unless I look it up and I can’t be bothered.
           
But how do you do it. How can you plot out a whole book and get yourself actually interested in writing it. Seriously I can’t do it. I’m the type of person (and maybe I’m the only one) that writes a book the way I read it. The characters come where they come; the plot doesn’t even show itself until half way through. It’s only the small plots that I seem to think about, the ones that weave in and out of each other. I actually like my books to be interesting to me while I write it. I seem to be a full on in the moment writer, and when it’s all done, than I fix it up. I know what happens and so I make sure that there are enough clues at the beginning of the book to have it work at the end.
           
I’m envious of all those people out there that can have a full chapter to chapter work out of the books you are writing, that you can still find that interesting to write. That you can still stay in the moment.

Though saying this, the book I’m writing, the one without a name, is the first book that I have written that’s fully plotted, I know what each part is meant to be about, what’s going to happen in it. Where it’s going, why it’s going there. What’s going to happen to the character? And a quarter of the way through the book started to bore me. I didn’t want to write it anymore. Really, what was the point I knew what was happening.

I think a lot of it is, with me, that I am actually writing them for myself, though I would love it if you guys would love them too, it’s something that I’m excited about, that I like to do and will do because it’s a way that I release all the crap in my head. all those... yeah, it would be great if I could make it a career, or even just make other people happy, but at the end of the day I write for myself and so when I know what’s happening... well what else is there to write about. I’m not learning anything, I already know where it’s heading, what’s coming and why. What else is there?

It’s just so unfair that I can’t seem to just write. I have to start at the beginning, and even if I change the beginning a hundred times that’s where it has to start. And then I work my way through the book like you would if you were reading it. I can’t jump around. Hell, I can write different parts of the book, things come to me and I write them down, but it’s very unlikely if it ever actually get’s in the story the same way that it went there with. And to be honestly that’s mostly when I write about the end of the story. ‘Cause I can’t get it out of my head and I need it gone so that I can write the part that I’m up to.

It’s annoying that I’m like this, and makes it hard to finish a book, and yet it’s easy I just have to be in a mood and then write what I see. It’s also one of those way I can write two or three books at once, ‘cause I get chapters or two and that’s it. but let’s face it, this book the Ya one that I’m writing, I started in May this year, and it’s Sept and I’m up to the last couple of main parts, I think I have two, maybe three left. If I was honest with myself (not a strong point, where’s the fun in self-honesty) I would say that my full plotting is the reason I got the book done. That too and this is one of the main books I want to try and get published. II finish this on by the end of the year and I’ll send it out. Even though I’m not really ready yet.

Well thanks for the ear or eyes as this case may be.

By the way I only wrote 5 pages, a4 single. But I’m up to the next part. And that’s the funnest this about it all. I get to start on the next part. And... Yeah, I get to start on the next part. YEAH!