and like always it seems my ideas and what I actually end
up doing are the opposite, and even though next year I know for a fact things
in this matter will get better--mostly because writing books is what I
want to do, and to do that I need to actually work at it. Not saying that I
don't, but I'm lazy and lazy people have to push themselves to do things
nonlazy people don't.
I'm not in any way a workaholic, I never will be, even
though I have a stranded in working, and I do what I must, I'm a lay back
enough person that it doesn't take up everything. I'm very good at switching
off.
This being said, it's why I have already failed in my
goal. Or maybe more, that I gave up trying. I found out what I wanted to
know.