Big News that Changes Nothing

So like the title of this post says nothing I’m about to say is new, or kinda is. None of it is anything I haven’t said before, and more so could change before I get to it, though I doubt it. I think this is where I need to go, where my writing is taking me. And I also need to find a job, which means I need to get a degree of some sort as I’ve not worked in 10 years, actually think it’s been longer then that since my son is 10 turning 11 early next year and I wasn’t working a few months before being pregnant. So, shit, nearly 12 years. That’s a long time for not working, especially when you want something specific rather than whatever you can get mean I have to go back to school.

To do that I need money, which means sitting on plans until I have it. So the next two to three years I’m saving and hopefully studying.

Anyway, what’s the nothing changed, but changing. In 2019 I will be changing from writing short stories. I am not a romance writer and I think I need to actually stop. Or at least see if I can do Heeley in a different way… well really I’m just going to stop writing short stories, and that’s not really true either as I will be it won’t be the same. I’m going to become a novel writer. I think that’s what my style of writing needs, plus I can write romance I’m just not a romance writer and I know that seems contradictory but it’s true.

I’m going to write 2 novels a year 1 McGee book and 1 Heeley book, and if I write more that’s cool, if I through in a few short stories here and there, then that’s what I do, but 100K a year is about as max as I’m going to go. Because I can’t make it as an author, not where I am. Not what I’m doing and so I need to stop kidding myself and look to the future.

So in 2019 my 2^nd YA novel from McGee will most likely be McAllister: Chasing Shadows, or whatever title I put on that cover. It’s actually a shorter novel as I’m looking at around 40K

My First Heeley novel will be from An Alphas World. My second will be a cowboy vampire story. Both will feature a romance but it’ll be different, more my style and longer.

Fingers crossed I can pull a novel off, because I truly believe it’s the only way I’ll be notices because I’m not a romance writer, my style is to different and in novel form that won’t be as farfetched.

So in the two years to come I’ll be finishing off series I need to finish in order to pull this off. Which means you will get

An Alphas world 2 and 3

Encounter Space 3 – 4

And something else that isn’t ready to be spoken about.

I’m also most likely going to be shutting down my blog, in a way, and reopening it to be something different, something I’d prefer it to be. Something more personal. I’ll give links for people to find other options elsewhere, but being as I have a newsletter now, and that I’m just struggling with computer issues and most likely will be for the next 6 months at a min. that it’s safe to say this could be one of my last post.

I’m hopeful that this isn’t true, but I honestly need to get a lot of thing off my plate, I need to finish things up and get ready for October next year and I’m getting distracted by life and that’s not helping anyone.

I will make it more official, depending on what I feel, I think for me right now jumping into anything quickly is a bad idea, so I’ll take the 1.5 weeks for me moving house and then the 2 weeks of my children being on school holidays to rethink my priorities and what I want and need to do. Schedule and make lists and I’ll be getting back to you with what I decide. Which sucks because I was just getting the hang of this whole people caring but it’s stress I don’t need and I also need to think of the future but along with that need to tie up some lose ends on my past and to take the time to create me as something that I can deal with whole working, and living and at the moment writing is just another stress and that doesn’t make me productive in any way.

Being Sick Sucks

I’m not joking, I thought what my daughter had been going through was just hay fever because no one else in the family had gotten the sickness, and it has been probably over 3 weeks but I was mistaken. Mistaken in the way of a flu and all the other wonderful crap she went through.

This meant the end of last week and over my weekend has been a wash as well as probably the next couple of days, because despite everything I’ve got to take cold and flu tablets and they stuff with my head. But not taking it means I end up with vertigo, which don’t want either. I’m hoping only one more day and I’ll be okay enough to not need them anymore.

On then though means I have no creativity, not really, even when all I want to go it write. Which is kinda how things normally go. Want to write when I can’t, don’t want to write when I need to.

Anyway, this week I’m beta reading a Christmas story, looking forward to it, but hating myself because of the sickness that’s not making me able to concentrate enough to beta it

I also want to re-read Encounter Space series and then write out or figure out enough of a plot for them, so it’s just about writing 2K a night as I’m hoping to be able to move house in the upcoming weeks and therefore can’t be creative in those times either.

Now, you may ask why I need to outline when I’m normally a panster? And I am but these next two book have to lead us somewhere, it’s not very far but in order for our dear John to get himself a HEA two books need to get him to the place where he can come to the conclusion of what he is. Though on one hand this series isn’t really about the plot and yet the plot will be there. Both these next two stories will have the means to get John where he needs to be but in all honestly you shouldn’t need to read either to get him there. He’ll be standing  on the burnt remains of the person who he blames the most but who will also be the key of pulling him back together of making him let it all go.

Now these two books were always going to be written, like with an An Alphas World, as readers demand (I excaudate, they just wish) they don’t get pushed in front of what’s already there, that’s not how I am. Hell, if I didn’t see the reasoning I wouldn’t write the second book at all, but 2 of my stories need an ending and I’ll get there but first…always a but first…. *evil smile*

I also have a feeling that in the upcoming years I’ll be doing my best to finish out the main parts of the series, or maybe just these two books as I have at least 3 novels I wish to write and I’m feeling that they are going to be coming sooner rather than later. But this might be more towards what I plan on doing outside of that. Like when I study. When I start to find a job that isn’t writing. Those things that will need to come first and therefore will free me up to write something that will take time. I have 3 novels. That need to be written. And I’m planning on getting to them in the next 5 years.

So cleaning and writing this week. That’s the plan anyway. What are you up to??

WORKING AWAY

This week is all about busy work.

First up I am doing rewrites and beta edits on Flipped 1. It’s sitting at 16K and I need to get it to at least 18K if not 20K, tho I doubt that will happen.

I’ve had good words for the story, it’s lighter then I normally write, or maybe not but they’re harder for me to write. Or is that just what we all go through when we get to a certain point in a story.

I have a hope that I’ll either write another Matching Mates book, I have wanted to write this one since I finished the first. It’s a little different then how I’m hoping the rest of the series goes as it’s a little bit heavier but it’s still what the series is meant to be, and that’s sex. And 6K of sex doesn’t take me all that time to write. A weekend *smiles*

If I can’t, and I’m not going to push it, because next week I have to get back into Encounter Space, 20k to write this month (*hush tones* that’s two stories, people, please don’t get your hopes up, I won’t be writing novels in MM until probably 2019)

So I’m not going to push myself, there’s no point, I tend to need time off after writing a story and I don’t really have that time for that. Encounter Space MUST be written, at least 1, because it needs edited before January, and I want it into it sooner rather than later.

What I’ll be doing instead, because for lots of reason I can’t seem to tell myself I’ll be writing this week, I’ll be getting back into Different beta edits, because that needs to be done too, that needs to be read through and to be back out of my hands again, edited. I know its not going to be finished by Christmas like I hopes, but it’s not important, I can wait. It’s a debut novel for McGee so it’s going to be perfect before I get that first copy printed.

Still it also needs doing. And it’ll give me something to do, to keep me busy.

I’m also hoping to create a something inside me again, I want to read, I’ve been missing it, but still can’t seem to get myself to actually read something new, so it’s also what I’d like to start this week, what I’d like to get myself into a habit of. The depression broke a lot of them for me and I’m over it, I want things back.

So if all I end up doing is edits on Flipped and then read for the week I wouldn’t be that hard off. I wouldn’t care that much. Though Flipped has to be done, its coming out in less than 2 months.

So that’s a plan for me. What are you guys up to?

Wishy Washy

“How are you today?” you ask

“Not the best. You?” I reply

This is me, how I’ve been feeling. However it wasn’t until one of my mates was talking to me about someone else that I realised that’s exactly how the last 4 months have been like for me, maybe the whole year.

Wishy washy.

I have excuses. Excuses I’ve been telling others, but more so excuses I’ve been telling myself. Money has been the main problem, it’s spun me in a hard loop, and most probably what I’ve been dealing with is a heavy dose of depression, one I’ve managed to have for so long I’ve worked myself into a state that I’m able to live a semi-normal life, though I’m feeling very little. I’m doing very little. I want to do less.

Details: Being That For You

I’m saddened to tell you all that I have made a massive and hard decision to think of money when it comes to this release. Which means that Being That for You will end up in Amazon KU for the first 3 months of its published life. I’m sorry, honestly I know. I understand. I hate it when this happened, but I need money. I need a new computer, and then to pay off my car, and to move and there is also holidays and…and…money. I have to be all adulty and think of a way to make some, so here’s the plan. Hope I don’t upset to many people with this decision

So this means it, as long as everything goes to plan, will be released into amazon, and onto KU on the 25th of August 2016 and won’t become available for the general public, or outsiders, I’m sure amazon would call us, until the 25th of November. 

So general information is:

It sits just under 20K which means I’m also going to be publishing it at $2.99. if you are not an amazon buyer, use paypal, and wish the book in your hands when it comes out I will gladly allow you to buy it from me at a lower price of $1.99 (which will give you all 3 etypes, epub, mobi & PDF, to your email) – email me at beeheeley[at]gmail[dot]com

The story is about life after the main story, that one where he’s straight but becomes gay for just the right person. You know that one *waggles brows* there real good, so if you’ve not read anything like that you should go looking. Anyway, it started as a blog story that got expanded by a few scenes and it’s a wonderfully beautiful story, if I do say so myself.

Ah… and so that’s all I’m willing to share, unless it is actually coming out on the 25^th and then I’ll have added more as I’d have had the book and gotten it ready for release, if not, and this is what you are reading then it’s not coming out for a few more day/week.

Update: Due to RL issues this book will be released on, or closer to, the 30th of August, maybe earlier because of the info above I’ll probably just release it 3 days after I submit it to Amazon. Then I’m promo

My Week

Pretty simple, here’s it is:

·         Beta read for Jo Tannah

·         First Flipped 1: This Life and Beyond – am actually going to first writing it/last read as then it’s just a quick trip into beta reads, quick fix and into edits. That too and the main part of the story is done, just the romance, aka sex, left

·         Final read of Being that For You – learn more about this tomorrow

·         Matching Mates 2 – if I’ve time

Writing A Book: The Fears

The book: Flipped 1: In This Life & Beyond

Subject: Paranormal Romance

Info: BonyDee Challenge with April Kelley

Word Count: 20K

Formal enough for you?

 I’m at the point in my story where it’s coming to the end, I’m struggling to write the max word count, though it’s not helping that I know I have a minimum of 4K that needs to be writing in the middle and start of the book. So I’m sitting at 12K but really that would be 16K if I’d managed to write those sections first.

The fears I’m having, is what I always have at this point. Does my story have a story? Is the plot working? Does the love interest work?

So for me that last one is where my fear sits much more, I am a romance writer. I am writing a romance. And for me that’s actually hard, mostly because I’m a plot writer and therefore my characters are just defaults, which means I know my plot works, it’s going exactly where I thought it would be, but I’m not sure I’ve got the chemistry and love between the two MC’s down.

This book it seems harder than most, mostly because this is telling a story when the lovers are already together, and happily together and this is the step forward from that. So my fear? Have I displayed that? Have I put that into the story enough?

 So now I’ve got to keep another 2K so that I can have some leeway to add backstory. Add relationship littered into the story. Right now I’ve written the bones, I’ve written the plot. And when its gone through beta – and maybe a second as I think I’m going to need someone with a different approach them my normal one, because I’m worried. I need to know, and yet that one won’t happen until I have at least gotten it ready for editing, and by then I’ll have add a relationship I believe I’m missing. Litter it in good.

I want this book to work, and knowing that now, now that I’m nearly done and yet so far from the end it’s not funny. I think though, it’s great to have the fear especially when you have a word count deadline. It’s better than having to cut things as I need to add them.

Actually A Quickie

This week I’m just focusing on Flipped: This Life & Beyond as that needs to be into beta reading by the end of the week

At the end of the week I will be getting final copy of Being That For You which will mean it goes into last last reads and then formatting, which means that by next week we should have that up for pre-order. This will again be done at a reduced cost. I’m going to look into making it cheaper on Amazon and see how that works. But I’m not sure so don’t hold me to it

I also need to clean *sigh*

And that’s it for me this week, what about you guys?

quick and easy

This fortnight (as I had internet problems, yep, the story of my life is swell, lol) I managed to not write anything more in the story I was meant to write, which was Flipped: In This Life & Beyond, mostly this is due, well there was two parts.

1) Being that April Kelley came up with this awesome idea for a quick series she’s going to write, which trigger my over active brain. Saying this there isn’t a whole lot that will be similar, you probably won’t even know, you know, if I hadn’t just said it, and will probably repeat as the months go on.

Anyway, my brain decided that it was a really cool idea, and hey wouldn’t this work out great! So I started a quick, and I mean quick as they will be max 6K each, no plot erotica. Ok, so paranormal erotica.

I’m calling the series Matching Mates and it’ll hold 6 books, in the first “chapter” and then we’ll see what follows. I finished the first book already, however I won’t be publishing it until all six books are done.

However if you want to read the rough and dirty first book I’m putting it up in my facebook group a part at a time – find it here

2) we have pushed the submission, and by that I mean it doesn’t have to be with our beta readers for another 2 weeks. Though I really do need to spend this week writing.

So that means, this week I’m spending writing. And making pre-made cover art, because I need some money so have to promote that side of things. I’m actually doing a promo thing if you are interested in looking at me for cover art.

I’m also going to be working through at least 1 beta read because she’s about to send me another one and I’m so looking forward to it and I have to have the first finished before I start the second. Honestly, my brain won’t let me, well without feeling bad.

And that’s me done, what are your plans for the week??

Let's Start This Up Again

Generally speaking I haven’t done anything, anything for a long time. and that means this month, or two actually is going to be pretty full.

I need to beta read a 72K book, which I’m not sure why I agreed to but I have and I want it done before you’ve read this, but have till the end of the week

I have to write Flipped 1 which is 4/20K. It shouldn’t be that hard as the plot is set I just have to write it, and it’s fun, I can’t wait to see what the characters are like when I put them into a situation they aren’t ready for

Then I have to write Encounter Space, it’s 20K and I’m hoping to write books 3 & 4 as they are only meant to be around 10K each and I really want them both done.

Then I have another beta read to read, which I really really want to read. I’ve read a chunk of it and it’s also like book 3 in the series and yeah but that’s not until around the August mark, maybe

THEN I’ve gotta finish the last read of Different (I’m on chapter 8) so that it can go into editing because I want in print and at my doorstep around the first week of Dec, if not earlier.

And that’s my month. got more to finish afterward, lots more but that’s for another day

Let’s Update, Might be the Last one for Awhile

So my computer problems are still up and have gotten worse. Which makes blogging harder than it was before, and let’s face it, it wasn’t easier. It means that I will have to stop blogging until I’m able to get a new computer. I’m hoping it’ll be by the end of the month.

I’m praying it’ll be by the end of the month.

Please be by then world!!

Okay, overdramatic, well that is very me, but it’s true. I’ll try my hardest to put things I’m when I can but it’s a painful process as windows 8 is just painful.

So no more Read Last Weeks until I get a new computer.

No graphic’s until I get a new computer

Back to old school Sexy Saturdays, if I’m even able to commit to them anymore.

But let’s hope we only have a month. Only 1 month. Honestly I’m crying ‘bout that but it will actually depend on when tax comes in.

So what’s up?

For me this month is all about writing the first of the BonyDee Challenge: Flipped 1 needs to be finished by the end of the month, which basically means I must write 1K a day. It’s a fun story and I’m hoping I’ll be able to get right into it.

Also got 2 beta reads, but they need to be done by the end of the month and really I’m hoping they’d both be finished before you read this.

And do the beta edits of Different. If I want this one ready to print around Oct it needs to have gone through editing. So really it does mean it probably won’t be ready by then, which sucks but April and I are hopeful that we’ll be able to get it to a point that it only needs a line editor and only one look over before the proofer. But then again I’ve not read it since I’ve written it.

After that I am going to finish the 3 other Flipped books, and I am going to write Encounter Space 3.

I’m also hoping that I’ll actually be able to bring out my newsletter soon. I think I’ve hit the 23hr mark or 72. I’m hoping after that long it’ll work like a effing email and I’ll be able to get the effing code needed in order to link up my newsletter to my domain name and THEN I’ll be able to send it out, because I’ve been dealing with this for the last week now and it’s driving me crazy. Can you tell?!!

I’m sorry for all these inconveniences, though I’m sure it’s my own that is mostly taken rather than yours. And at the other end I’ll have lots of news as I don’t have anything else but to write, edit and write some more. And let’s hope it actually allows me to catch up on the writing because I’m letting go of this stressor and allowing myself to just go with what I can and just write. I really need to write.

I Did Nothing

I did nothing. Nothing at all. Honestly have no excuse except to say that it’s my birthday in a couple of weeks and my family have this amazing present they are giving me and have been teasing me with for the past 6 months and apparently this is my breaking point. I can’t concentrate on anything but wondering what I’m getting.

So what is in store for this week? Well first I have to delete my iBooks app on my iPad and upload it again which is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do in a long time. I know I’m going to be losing books. Book I won’t be able to get back. Some are on the never list, others I will have to buy them again.

The thing is my iPad is old and it’s had enough and as it is now I can’t open the app. Well it’ll open and then get out of it asap, but it’s not all backed up and so…painful. But it has to be done. Really. I’d rather lose books then no be able to read any. Still it’s sad and hard. And means I’ll probably want to deal with the busy work of reuploading all my books, or more so get them back up into my hard drive and only download the ones I want to read again. But that also sucks, because I have books that just come to mind and I don’t want to deal with all that bullshit when I just want a little taste … oh well, there’s no help in it.

I will also spend a few days uploading my birthday bash things. I’m doing it through my blog this year. The FB page was good, but being that I had to go in every day and deal with it isn’t something I’m able to do this year. My computer just won’t allow for that. So blog it is.

It will be starting on the 7th of June and running until the 21st of June.

I also want to get the editing down for Different. It needs to be done and yet I’m not in a rush so I can go chapter by chapter and see how things work. But it’s something that I don’t have to be to creative over and it really needs doing and once it’s done and I’m back to normal again I should be able to push out the books I need to write – which is 8 books in 6 months…yeah I don’t see it happening. But I’ll give it my best shot.

And that’s it for me, how your week looking?