“Not the best. You?” I reply
This is me, how I’ve been
feeling. However it wasn’t until one of my mates was talking to me about
someone else that I realised that’s exactly how the last 4 months have been
like for me, maybe the whole year.
Wishy washy.
I have excuses. Excuses I’ve
been telling others, but more so excuses I’ve been telling myself. Money has
been the main problem, it’s spun me in a hard loop, and most probably what I’ve
been dealing with is a heavy dose of depression, one I’ve managed to have for
so long I’ve worked myself into a state that I’m able to live a semi-normal
life, though I’m feeling very little. I’m doing very little. I want to do less.