Due to real life stresses, no internet and just flat out exhaustion I am sorry to say that my blog will be closed until further notices. I'm hopeful we will be up and running again before Christmas but I'm not truely sure. It'll all depend on what happens over the next month or two.
Thank you all for sticking with me and I hope to have exciting news when I get back on here. If you want to find me elsewhere, I'm still as active as I can be at present in Facebook. Just look up my name and when you hit the rainbow butterfly friend me :)
Monday 26 September 2016
Thursday 15 September 2016
Big News that Changes Nothing
So like the title of this post
says nothing I’m about to say is new, or kinda is. None of it is anything I
haven’t said before, and more so could change before I get to it, though I
doubt it. I think this is where I need to go, where my writing is taking me.
And I also need to find a job, which means I need to get a degree of some sort
as I’ve not worked in 10 years, actually think it’s been longer then that since
my son is 10 turning 11 early next year and I wasn’t working a few months
before being pregnant. So, shit, nearly 12 years. That’s a long time for not
working, especially when you want something specific rather than whatever you
can get mean I have to go back to school.
To do that I need money, which
means sitting on plans until I have it. So the next two to three years I’m
saving and hopefully studying.
Anyway, what’s the nothing changed,
but changing. In 2019 I will be changing from writing short stories. I am not a
romance writer and I think I need to actually stop. Or at least see if I can do
Heeley in a different way… well really I’m just going to stop writing short
stories, and that’s not really true either as I will be it won’t be the same.
I’m going to become a novel writer. I think that’s what my style of writing
needs, plus I can write romance I’m just not a romance writer and I know that
seems contradictory but it’s true.
I’m going to write 2 novels a
year 1 McGee book and 1 Heeley book, and if I write more that’s cool, if I
through in a few short stories here and there, then that’s what I do, but 100K
a year is about as max as I’m going to go. Because I can’t make it as an
author, not where I am. Not what I’m doing and so I need to stop kidding myself
and look to the future.
So in 2019 my 2nd
YA novel from McGee will most likely be McAllister: Chasing Shadows, or
whatever title I put on that cover. It’s actually a shorter novel as I’m
looking at around 40K
My First Heeley novel will be
from An Alphas World. My second will be a cowboy vampire story. Both will
feature a romance but it’ll be different, more my style and longer.
Fingers crossed I can pull a
novel off, because I truly believe it’s the only way I’ll be notices because
I’m not a romance writer, my style is to different and in novel form that won’t
be as farfetched.
So in the two years to come
I’ll be finishing off series I need to finish in order to pull this off. Which
means you will get
An Alphas world 2 and 3
Encounter Space 3 – 4
And something else that isn’t
ready to be spoken about.
I’m also most likely going to
be shutting down my blog, in a way, and reopening it to be something different,
something I’d prefer it to be. Something more personal. I’ll give links for
people to find other options elsewhere, but being as I have a newsletter now,
and that I’m just struggling with computer issues and most likely will be for
the next 6 months at a min. that it’s safe to say this could be one of my last
post.
I’m hopeful that this isn’t
true, but I honestly need to get a lot of thing off my plate, I need to finish
things up and get ready for October next year and I’m getting distracted by
life and that’s not helping anyone.
I will make it more official,
depending on what I feel, I think for me right now jumping into anything
quickly is a bad idea, so I’ll take the 1.5 weeks for me moving house and then
the 2 weeks of my children being on school holidays to rethink my priorities
and what I want and need to do. Schedule and make lists and I’ll be getting
back to you with what I decide. Which sucks because I was just getting the hang
of this whole people caring but it’s stress I don’t need and I also need to
think of the future but along with that need to tie up some lose ends on my
past and to take the time to create me as something that I can deal with whole
working, and living and at the moment writing is just another stress and that
doesn’t make me productive in any way.
Tuesday 13 September 2016
Being Sick Sucks
I’m not joking, I thought what
my daughter had been going through was just hay fever because no one else in
the family had gotten the sickness, and it has been probably over 3 weeks but I
was mistaken. Mistaken in the way of a flu and all the other wonderful crap she
went through.
This meant the end of last
week and over my weekend has been a wash as well as probably the next couple of
days, because despite everything I’ve got to take cold and flu tablets and they
stuff with my head. But not taking it means I end up with vertigo, which don’t
want either. I’m hoping only one more day and I’ll be okay enough to not need
them anymore.
On then though means I have no
creativity, not really, even when all I want to go it write. Which is kinda how
things normally go. Want to write when I can’t, don’t want to write when I need
to.
Anyway, this week I’m beta
reading a Christmas story, looking forward to it, but hating myself because of
the sickness that’s not making me able to concentrate enough to beta it
I also want to re-read
Encounter Space series and then write out or figure out enough of a plot for
them, so it’s just about writing 2K a night as I’m hoping to be able to move
house in the upcoming weeks and therefore can’t be creative in those times
either.
Now, you may ask why I need to
outline when I’m normally a panster? And I am but these next two book have to
lead us somewhere, it’s not very far but in order for our dear John to get
himself a HEA two books need to get him to the place where he can come to the
conclusion of what he is. Though on one hand this series isn’t really about the
plot and yet the plot will be there. Both these next two stories will have the
means to get John where he needs to be but in all honestly you shouldn’t need
to read either to get him there. He’ll be standing on the burnt remains of the person who he
blames the most but who will also be the key of pulling him back together of
making him let it all go.
Now these two books were
always going to be written, like with an An Alphas World, as readers demand (I
excaudate, they just wish) they don’t get pushed in front of what’s already
there, that’s not how I am. Hell, if I didn’t see the reasoning I wouldn’t
write the second book at all, but 2 of my stories need an ending and I’ll get
there but first…always a but first…. *evil smile*
I also have a feeling that in
the upcoming years I’ll be doing my best to finish out the main parts of the
series, or maybe just these two books as I have at least 3 novels I wish to
write and I’m feeling that they are going to be coming sooner rather than
later. But this might be more towards what I plan on doing outside of that.
Like when I study. When I start to find a job that isn’t writing. Those things
that will need to come first and therefore will free me up to write something
that will take time. I have 3 novels. That need to be written. And I’m planning
on getting to them in the next 5 years.
So cleaning and writing this
week. That’s the plan anyway. What are you up to??
Saturday 10 September 2016
Thursday 8 September 2016
Blinking Away the Darkness
A week or so ago, I can’t
remember, but I wrote a post – this one – about how I realised I was depressed?
It was a dark one, something a bit different then what I normally see these
days and very much about the amount of stress in my life.
It’s been two weeks and I’m
more or less back to my bubbly self. I laugh, as I finished writing that, but
really I can actually be bubbly is I wish to be. Just because it’s mostly an
act doesn’t mean I can’t do it. That it isn’t authentically me. Just a more
then what I really feel.
I’m one of the lucky ones, I
feel it’s because my mind is actually very strong, despite the fact that I have
depression. So coming to the realisation that I was depressed was more or less
what I needed in order to snap me out of it.
Okay, there was more. Taking
Iron was a start, 3 weeks before my body started showing me it wasn’t needed
anymore, and that’s a horrible thought, normally it’s only a week.
Now that I’m out of it, I have
these moments of trying to remember what I was like back then, back in those
days, what did I do? How did I act? Clearly it couldn’t have been that
different or my loved ones, my sister the most, would have noticed. Why her?
Because I see her weekly, my family, the ones I live with see me too much. As
for me, my depression is slow riding, it would have taken me a week or so to
get that bad, and I was trying to fool myself so of course I was able to fool
those who saw me every day. My mother and father I don’t see as much, not
nearly enough to see a different, or to see it as something that wasn’t just a
mood I was in at that time. I also believe I had a cold or something in that
time too, or I thought it was that. Maybe. Hell I can’t remember, and that’s
the point.
I can’t remember.
I can’t remember what I thought,
what I did. I know most of it was sleeping and doing what I HAD to in order to
live, in order to let my kids have the best of their childhood without me
pulling them down. It’s something I try really hard to always do best by them,
like every parent out there does.
I can’t remember anything.
There was nothing important in life through those weeks, or because my head was
so messed up it’s disregarded everything that happened. Everything that went on
as non-important.
Now, this is clearly what has happened
every time I’ve gotten depressed, but normally it’s a different kind, a sharper
kind that belittles me, shows itself as something. Where this one didn’t. I
didn’t even wake up as I noticed I was drooling at the wall all day. No it was
work that clued me on, even though hundreds of other things should have.
Anyway, my point, though I’m
not sure I actually have one, is that I’m back. I’m not perfect, never would
be, but more so I have to be very careful with everything I do and what’s going
on around me. I have to double check things, check my own thoughts as I’m not
sure if it’s because I’m stressing or because my head wants to pull me back
down.
I am still stressed, that’s
definitely won’t lighten up we move house, it’s a hope this will happen before
October, but until we get our kick out letter I’m trying not to stress too much
about it. Trying to not let it get to me. I’m trying not to let anything get to
me. It’s hard though, my head is trying to make things bigger then what they
need to be, but the illness in my head is…anyway just repeating myself, but
here’s the update.
Wednesday 7 September 2016
Cover Reveal: Lane Hayes with A Kind of Honesty
Title: A Kind of Honesty
Series: A Kind of Story, #3
Author: Lane Hayes
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Release Date: October 7, 2016
Heat Level: 4 - Lots of Sex
Pairing: Male/Male
Length: 85K
Genre: Romance, Bisexual, Rock star, NYC, humor
Tuesday 6 September 2016
WORKING AWAY
This week is all about busy
work.
First up I am doing rewrites
and beta edits on Flipped 1. It’s sitting at 16K and I need to get it to at
least 18K if not 20K, tho I doubt that will happen.
I’ve had good words for the
story, it’s lighter then I normally write, or maybe not but they’re harder for
me to write. Or is that just what we all go through when we get to a certain
point in a story.
I have a hope that I’ll either
write another Matching Mates book, I have wanted to write this one since I
finished the first. It’s a little different then how I’m hoping the rest of the
series goes as it’s a little bit heavier but it’s still what the series is
meant to be, and that’s sex. And 6K of sex doesn’t take me all that time to
write. A weekend *smiles*
If I can’t, and I’m not going
to push it, because next week I have to get back into Encounter Space, 20k to
write this month (*hush tones* that’s two stories, people, please don’t get
your hopes up, I won’t be writing novels in MM until probably 2019)
So I’m not going to push
myself, there’s no point, I tend to need time off after writing a story and I
don’t really have that time for that. Encounter Space MUST be written, at least
1, because it needs edited before January, and I want it into it sooner rather
than later.
What I’ll be doing instead,
because for lots of reason I can’t seem to tell myself I’ll be writing this
week, I’ll be getting back into Different beta edits, because that needs to be
done too, that needs to be read through and to be back out of my hands again,
edited. I know its not going to be finished by Christmas like I hopes, but it’s
not important, I can wait. It’s a debut novel for McGee so it’s going to be
perfect before I get that first copy printed.
Still it also needs doing. And
it’ll give me something to do, to keep me busy.
I’m also hoping to create a
something inside me again, I want to read, I’ve been missing it, but still
can’t seem to get myself to actually read something new, so it’s also what I’d
like to start this week, what I’d like to get myself into a habit of. The
depression broke a lot of them for me and I’m over it, I want things back.
So if all I end up doing is
edits on Flipped and then read for the week I wouldn’t be that hard off. I wouldn’t
care that much. Though Flipped has to be done, its coming out in
less than 2 months.
So that’s a plan for me. What
are you guys up to?
Saturday 3 September 2016
Thursday 1 September 2016
Moonlit Wolves are in a Bundle
so apparently Extasybooks put 5 of my Moonlit Wolves books into a bundle. pretty cool, but what's better it's on sale right now for half price, which is a shitload better then buying them as singles. or even the bundle when it's full price.
anyway, if you haven't read any of the books, this might be the time to try them out. they are simple, fast and a little dark tales of werewolves and there mates.
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