Wednesday, 31 August 2016

Being That For You, OUT NOW

 I honestly could believe it, not only is it LIVE, actually out there in the world, but it happened within 4hrs. I really like this story, have since I wrote it as a blog story back when I first started writing. And now it’s in your hands, improved, of course, along with some added material. hope you guys enjoy.

We all know what happens, boy meets boy. Boy realises he’s not as heterosexual as he believed he’s whole life. Boys kisses boy. Boys fall in love. And walla happily ever after

The thing is ever after is actually a long time and what happens in between can make or break even the strongest of starts


**If you wish to read this book, for review purposes, please email me at beeheeley(@)gmail(.)com

Guest: Sarah Marsh with Dark Redemption



by Sarah Marsh

Broken Souls Series, #1 Release Date: August 30, 2016 Publisher: Limitless Publishing Cover Designer: Redbird Designs

Friday, 26 August 2016

Randomness Friday

April Kelley and I are starting something different, instead of blog swapping we will be answering questions along with sharing bits of our research into 2nd BonyDee Press challenge; click name for rules

Please, after reading below, go and check out April’s Post

April’s on Holidays, for the week, so let’s have some fun, and by fun I mean an excerpt of my upcoming release Being That for You.
(please excuse mistakes, it’s still in edits)

Christmas in July

“Do you think I’d ever lie to you?” Jake asked.
“We lie the most to the ones we love.”
“Maybe, but it’s those we love who see right through us. I know you see through me. I guess, more than anything, it’s about trust. Do you trust me, baby?”
Mike sighed, sinking into his chair. “That’s just it. I’m not sure if you deserve it anymore.”
“What! Why?”
Mike waved his hand, brushing the air. “It’s… little things. I think… shit.”
“What things? Tell me. What have I done?”
Mike sighed again. “I don’t know how to say it without sounding like I’m bitching. It’s nothing big. I’m just… I guess I’m… it’s just that—fuck it! It’s nothing. There’s nothing. I trust you, I have since I started falling for you, and unless I walk in on you fucking him I’ll keep trusting you.” With that he got up and walked out the door.
“What the fuck was that all about?” Jake muttered to himself. “And who’s he?” he yelled after his lover, but it was too late, Mike was gone. Even if he had heard, he wouldn’t have answered.
Fuck. Jake didn’t know what the hell was going on with his man. Things between them hadn’t been at their bubbly best lately. Hell, wasn’t until recently, when he’d realised their anniversary was coming up, that he’d finally admitted to himself things weren’t going so great. But they weren’t terribly bad, which almost made it worse.
Jake stood with a sigh and started getting ready for work. It hadn’t been easy at the centre either. A new shipment of boys had arrived after Detective Martins busted a massage parlour for using minors to give happy endings. Since they’d started providing rehab his job was ten times harder. Which was the reason he was heading in to work again tonight. He had to go talk one of the younger boys into calming down.
Jake gathered his courage, which he trembled on the edge of losing, and thought back to his conversation with Mike. They’d been cuddling on the lounge, like they did almost every night, when Jake realised they were stuck, that it has been a long time since Mike started anything between them. He just rested in Jake’s arms, making small talk and yelling at the TV screen. He always used to initiate things, and the lack of interest was a huge indication something was wrong.
He missed his Mike, missed the man whose idea of relaxing involved water fights in the kitchen or couch wrestling matches that ended with them naked and sweaty. He wondered where that man had gone, why Mike had changed into a subdued version of himself. Then his phone had started to ring and Mike heaved a sigh so loud Jake heard every word Mike wasn’t saying.
The call represented his work, his dream, his life— but it was turning Mike into someone who didn’t want to start anything, ‘cause Jake had gotten called away and left him hanging too many times. Jake knew that, they’d even had a few small blow-ups over him leaving, he just hadn’t really been listening. Mike hid his hurt in self-mocking quips, said with a smile and an edge of laughter. It was a tone Mike had perfected long before Jake had met him because, even though Mike was a large man, he didn’t particularly like confrontation. Yeah, he got in your face if you pissed him off, even yelled back if he thought he needed to, and was quick to defend people he loved, but when it came to standing up to Jake he was oddly shy. Almost like Mike though he might walk out on him if he got to angry, and Jake didn’t want that. At least, Jake hoped that was the case, and Mike wasn’t just waiting ‘til he’d saved up enough money to leave. Jake wasn’t sure what he’d do if Mike ever left him.
“You okay?” Mike’s voice broke through the heartache the thoughts bouncing around Jake’s head caused, and he smiled sadly. Mike still sounded pissed. It wasn’t a tone he used all that much, and if it’d been anyone else Jake knew there would’ve been pillows waiting for him on the lounge when he got home ‘cause he wasn’t welcome in bed. But that wouldn’t happen with Mike. No matter how upset he was, no matter how much they yelled at each other, they always ended the day in the same bed and woke up in a tangle of limbs. It was how he knew they were perfect for each other, that this was the real deal.
“Jake?” Mike reminded him.
“Yep.” He leaned over the back of the lounge and kissed Mike softly on the lips. “I’ll try not to be too late—”
“But you probably will be,” Mike finished with a resigned half-smile Jake realised he’d been seeing more often than his usual smile.
“You know I love you, right?” Jake asked, hovering above his lover’s face, his low back aching slightly from the angle.
Mike’s smile turned sweet. “’Course. Love you, too.”
They kissed softly, a slight dampening of lips, before Jake pulled away and Mike turned his attention back to the telly. The instant flicking of channels made Jake’s chest tighten around his heart. “You better go before the place burns down,” Mike laughed that laugh. He  hated that fucking laugh.
“Yep. See you when I get home,” Jake half-questioned, swallowing down the pressure pushing at the back of his eyes.
“I’ll see you in the morning,” Mike countered, smiling at Jake over his shoulder, his eyes sad. “Hope everything goes well, babe. Call if you need help.”
“Will do,” Jake said as he walked out the door, absently rubbing at the ache in his chest as he got closer to his car.


Thursday, 25 August 2016

Wishy Washy

“How are you today?” you ask
“Not the best. You?” I reply

This is me, how I’ve been feeling. However it wasn’t until one of my mates was talking to me about someone else that I realised that’s exactly how the last 4 months have been like for me, maybe the whole year.

Wishy washy.

I have excuses. Excuses I’ve been telling others, but more so excuses I’ve been telling myself. Money has been the main problem, it’s spun me in a hard loop, and most probably what I’ve been dealing with is a heavy dose of depression, one I’ve managed to have for so long I’ve worked myself into a state that I’m able to live a semi-normal life, though I’m feeling very little. I’m doing very little. I want to do less.

Wednesday, 24 August 2016

Details: Being That For You

I’m saddened to tell you all that I have made a massive and hard decision to think of money when it comes to this release. Which means that Being That for You will end up in Amazon KU for the first 3 months of its published life. I’m sorry, honestly I know. I understand. I hate it when this happened, but I need money. I need a new computer, and then to pay off my car, and to move and there is also holidays and…and…money. I have to be all adulty and think of a way to make some, so here’s the plan. Hope I don’t upset to many people with this decision

So this means it, as long as everything goes to plan, will be released into amazon, and onto KU on the 25th of August 2016 and won’t become available for the general public, or outsiders, I’m sure amazon would call us, until the 25th of November. 

So general information is:

It sits just under 20K which means I’m also going to be publishing it at $2.99. if you are not an amazon buyer, use paypal, and wish the book in your hands when it comes out I will gladly allow you to buy it from me at a lower price of $1.99 (which will give you all 3 etypes, epub, mobi & PDF, to your email) – email me at beeheeley[at]gmail[dot]com

The story is about life after the main story, that one where he’s straight but becomes gay for just the right person. You know that one *waggles brows* there real good, so if you’ve not read anything like that you should go looking. Anyway, it started as a blog story that got expanded by a few scenes and it’s a wonderfully beautiful story, if I do say so myself.

Ah… and so that’s all I’m willing to share, unless it is actually coming out on the 25th and then I’ll have added more as I’d have had the book and gotten it ready for release, if not, and this is what you are reading then it’s not coming out for a few more day/week.

Update: Due to RL issues this book will be released on, or closer to, the 30th of August, maybe earlier because of the info above I’ll probably just release it 3 days after I submit it to Amazon. Then I’m promo

Tuesday, 23 August 2016

My Week

Pretty simple, here’s it is:

·         Beta read for Jo Tannah
·         First Flipped 1: This Life and Beyond – am actually going to first writing it/last read as then it’s just a quick trip into beta reads, quick fix and into edits. That too and the main part of the story is done, just the romance, aka sex, left
·         Final read of Being that For You – learn more about this tomorrow
·         Matching Mates 2 – if I’ve time

Sunday, 21 August 2016

Read Last Week

The only thing I’ve Read this week is Swaying the Marine’s Loyalty (Wolves of Stone Ridge) by Charlie Richards, it was…well I’m still not sure yet, like I enjoyed it while reading (tho had a little trouble at the start), it held another part of the war, another step, but was it important enough that you needed to read it? I’m not sure, and I think that’s what I’m struggling with. That and why weren’t the wolves more involved, especially Jerrod, did he suddenly not give a shit even though he was the one that sent them? I’m hoping some of the question will be answered in the next Wolves one, and I know I will. The romance part was pretty simple and easy and maybe that’s something I wasn’t expecting that’s why I’m focused a little more on the series plot. 

  Re-Read I’m getting back into Carol Lynne’s Cattle Valley series, I started with Bad Boy Cowboy and am up to Fire House Heat – wait no I’m in the middle of Neil’s Guardian

I was meant to beta read a book for Jo Tannah, which I haven’t yet. If you are reading this Jo, sorry, being lazy/ultra-busy, I’ll be doing it first thing tomorrow


Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Writing A Book: The Fears

The book: Flipped 1: In This Life & Beyond
Subject: Paranormal Romance
Info: BonyDee Challenge with April Kelley
Word Count: 20K

Formal enough for you?

 I’m at the point in my story where it’s coming to the end, I’m struggling to write the max word count, though it’s not helping that I know I have a minimum of 4K that needs to be writing in the middle and start of the book. So I’m sitting at 12K but really that would be 16K if I’d managed to write those sections first.

The fears I’m having, is what I always have at this point. Does my story have a story? Is the plot working? Does the love interest work?

So for me that last one is where my fear sits much more, I am a romance writer. I am writing a romance. And for me that’s actually hard, mostly because I’m a plot writer and therefore my characters are just defaults, which means I know my plot works, it’s going exactly where I thought it would be, but I’m not sure I’ve got the chemistry and love between the two MC’s down.

This book it seems harder than most, mostly because this is telling a story when the lovers are already together, and happily together and this is the step forward from that. So my fear? Have I displayed that? Have I put that into the story enough?

 So now I’ve got to keep another 2K so that I can have some leeway to add backstory. Add relationship littered into the story. Right now I’ve written the bones, I’ve written the plot. And when its gone through beta – and maybe a second as I think I’m going to need someone with a different approach them my normal one, because I’m worried. I need to know, and yet that one won’t happen until I have at least gotten it ready for editing, and by then I’ll have add a relationship I believe I’m missing. Litter it in good.

I want this book to work, and knowing that now, now that I’m nearly done and yet so far from the end it’s not funny. I think though, it’s great to have the fear especially when you have a word count deadline. It’s better than having to cut things as I need to add them.

Sunday, 14 August 2016

Read Last Week

Another slow reading week for me, I’d like to say I was too busy writing, but I’ve not really doing that either. I’m just being lazy and all obsessively inclined towards Charlie Richards paranormal series, so lots of Re-Reading

Friday, 12 August 2016

Randomness Friday

April Kelley and I are starting something different, instead of blog swapping we will be answering questions along with sharing bits of our research into 2nd BonyDee Press challenge; click name for rules

Please, after reading below, go and check out April’s Post

Growing Up? Family?

I’m one of those extremely lucky people who had a family that was … well, perfect is too strong a word but I’ve known some dysfunctional families in my time as well as see some really crappy ‘parents’, that if there was a “perfect” type of family mine would have come pretty close.

I lived in the same place until I had a family, and though depression as a teenager put me in a position to make some to do things I probably shouldn’t have, but the things in my friends did worse I just, well, stayed in the tent (I’m still not sure what I would have done if they didn’t make it back). What I’m trying to say is though I did some things my parents didn’t particularly like, I never rebelled. I didn’t have to. My parents raised me in a way that allowed me to do 90% of what I wanted, all they wanted to know was where I was and how to reach me.

So I grew up with a mother and father, a younger brother and sister. We lived in a place that was very sheltered, honestly we had one parents of a friend die when we were really young and 1 divorce, which is pretty impressive considering that we were a pretty decent size community.

My family unit are pretty close, surprisingly I remember my niece mother said once. She was talking to my brother and asked him what he’d do is something happened to one of either me or my sister, or one of my kid and he simply said: I’d kill the bastard. She was shocked at that. I wasn’t, I’d do the same thing, or go and help him bury a body. I also know if I were to ring him for something he’d be there as soon as he could. My sister and I are closer, we have dinner once a week, and every so often have dates, these are mostly when there’s a movie either of us want to see (aka Spy), or I just need out of the house. And when she has her kids I will end up at her house or going out with her and her kids once a week.

My parents are still as sweetly in love as when they first hooked up which was when they were 16 and with some story about a CB radio, my mum big breasted friend and my dad’s shoe. They are one of those couples we all want to find, and growing up you learn what can be. What’s out there?

I have a larger family, aunties and uncles, less on my dad’s side as they only have 3 kids. My dad had 2 older sister, and the story is that the only reason dad was born was because my Nan got drunk on night. They are very strongly opinionated strong woman. On the other hand my mother came from Northern Ireland, they immigrated over here when she was, I think, 8 (being in the younger group of siblings) and they got another brother while over here. My dad’s from Yorkshire, his family immigrated over to Australia when he was 13 or something.

I’ve been lucky, it’s only been over the last 10 years that I ever went to a funeral for a family member. I’ve lost 3 of my four grandparents and 1 aunty. And before that I only went to 2, one for a friend, who was a part of a horrible accident, and 1 more in moral support for a friend, I can’t remember her and I’m not sure I did until the school week after the funeral.

So like I said, nothing in my life was anything. It was sheltered, though we knew bad things happened. It was nice and easy in a relative way and it makes it hard to bitch about anything, especially when up again my brother’s new girlfriend who didn’t have quite a nice life. She kinda had the opposite of what we had.

Anyway, hope you’ve learnt something about me, and that you wanted to, because I talked a lot more than I thought I would.


Thursday, 11 August 2016

Unread But Over Represented

This is a book chat thingy from a vlogger I follow and I thought it might be fun to see what mine was like. I went with 5 books plus and came away with 38 authors

So I’ll start with the most and work my way down

1.      Andrew Grey, he has a whopping 29 books on my shelf. Mostly it’s because he writes novels and I generally don’t read them, but I love his work and therefore buy everything he releases and am slowly working on his backlist

2.      Amy Lane, who again, love what I’ve read of hers and keep on buying her new releases. However like Andrew, she writes novels, she also has a habit of writing angst which, even though I wouldn’t mind reading, I tend to just skip because I don’t want to read something that heavy (27 books)

3.      Silvia Violet, who has 21 books, which honestly was a surprise to me, and makes me think that I truly need to get into a Violet mood and read a bunch of them. because I can’t see why I’ve got that many waiting

4.      At 19 is Mary Calmes, mostly this has gotten large do to sales and such which has me buying a lot of her books, however though I’ve liked what I’ve read so far I don’t know how rushed I man to get this backlist down

5.      TA Chase is another like the above, I’ve gotten her books on a whim or through sales though I’ve only read what’s in anthologies and though I have plans on reading them all I’m not sure how rushed I am to get there

6.      Is a shared spot with KC Wells and slightly Parker Williams & Shannon West.  The first is a series, the Cuff and Collar if I’m not mistaken, I have it all sitting there waiting. I’m constantly told to hurry and read them but haven’t been able to find the time to get into a full obsession – there are a few more that’s added to the total from KC Wells which hold the same value. Shannon on the other hand is because I’ve bought a couple of bundles by her (12 books)

7.      Talia Carmichael, this is because a friend thinks I’d love her, and I have read 1 series, however I went on a bit of a spree which upped the total (11 books)

8.      Another shared on with Mercy Celeste & BG Thomas, honestly for most of the same reason, and not so. BG’s I got through sales mostly and just having been able to get the time to read, Mercy’s is because until recently if she put a book into ARe you bought it or lose the opportunity (10) – oh I missed on, SA Welsh, but I’d be repeating myself as her’s is due to her books being awesome and me not having time

9.      This is the number of books and has a few, most, again, though sales such as Charlie Cochet, Kim Fielding & SJD Peterson, this isn’t to say I don’t like them, or having read them, just that the reason it’s so large is from sales mostly. Rick R Reed is because I just can’t seem to stop myself

10.  Keri Author & Jamie Cox is mostly that there books have piled up and I’ve always decided to read something else (8 books)

11.  These are ones I don’t believe I’ve actually read anything by them but I want to, apparently a lot, lol John Goode, John Inman & AC Katt (7 books)

12.  And this one is the same, as I know I’ve only read one of these authors before. Jamie Fessenden, Brenda Cothern, Jordan L Hawk, Erin M Leaf, TJ Klune, Victoria Sue, Lou Sylvre, Brandon Witt & the one who read Meredith Russell (6 books)
13.  Lastly these ones are more about the months piling up and I’ve just not gotten to them yet, Posy Roberts, Kira Stone, Damon Suede, Shira Anthony, Charley Descoteaux, Eli Easton & Jacob Z Flores – ok, some of those I haven’t even read 1 books from (5 books)

And that’s it’s with my over represented what’s yours??

Tuesday, 9 August 2016

Actually A Quickie

This week I’m just focusing on Flipped: This Life & Beyond as that needs to be into beta reading by the end of the week
At the end of the week I will be getting final copy of Being That For You which will mean it goes into last last reads and then formatting, which means that by next week we should have that up for pre-order. This will again be done at a reduced cost. I’m going to look into making it cheaper on Amazon and see how that works. But I’m not sure so don’t hold me to it
I also need to clean *sigh*
And that’s it for me this week, what about you guys?