Happy Birthday to Me ǀ WINNERS

First off let me thank everyone who took part in this mass giveaway, those who came for a day, those who stuck with it from the start, truly you are all wonderful people. Truly, you make my birthday last longer than just the day and that’s it

But let me move along, you’re here for one thing and one thing over, to see what you’ve won.

Need to add book they won behind DAY

DAY 1: PDF of Loved By A Werewolf winner Booksandmore

DAY 2: PDF of Forever With My Werewolf winner Debra Gayette

DAY 3: Seeking My Werewolf winner Lee Todd

DAY 4:  ebook of Crash winner Anna Barlow

DAY 5: Any format of Outside Sanity winner Loveless3173

DAY 6: Any format of The Way Life Turns winner ShirleyAnn

DAY 7: PDF of Taking Control of My Werewolf winner booksandmore

DAY 8: PDF of Protecting My Werewolf winner Loveless3173

DAY 9: PDF of A Werewolf’s Howl winner Loveless3173

DAY 10: PDF of The Rub of My Werewolf winner booksandmore

DAY 11: any format of Leave It All winner booksandmore

DAY 12: Any format of Love Without Knowing It winner booksandmore

DAY 13: Any format of My Outside My Inside winner no winner

DAY 14: PDF of Ben’s Wolf Surprise winner Debby

MAIN PRIZE: 1x paperback of BonyDee Press Anthology, 1x paperback of Journey of Jimini Renn, 1x ecopy of The Hunt, 1x ecopy of What A Difference a Day Makes & 1x ecopy of Stay with Me winner is Loveless3173 !!!

Congrates to everyone who won

Terms and Conditions

·         Each daily prize consisted of a ebook listed, if you already have the book you may choose another from my backlist, easiest choice would be to pick from the list above though there is also Running Scared (everything else on my backlist is free reads)

·         For main prize you must be willing to give your mailing address, if you wish for either paperbacks to be signed you must allow extra time

·         If you’re email wasn’t given in comments or you aren’t apart of my fb group, you must email me at beeheeley(@)gmail with the subject Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Release Day

At the end you will find the information needed for the giveaway – hurry and make sure you have your comments all in, I’m going to be closing it up tonight and announcing the winner tomorrow

Oh and another fun fact it’s release day!!

Dem: what are we meant to be saying?

Jeffery: I’m not sure, something to sell our story I believe

Dem: humph

Jeffery: *chuckles* that works.

Dem: *eyes narrowed* how so?

Jeffery: Well it’s basically how you were though the whole story, always grumbly and resistant.

Dem: And that’s bad?

Jeffery: never said it was *kissed Dem hairy cheek* just that it’s what the story is about

Dem: no it isn’t. It’s about…. Ah…. Us finding each other

Jeffery: there is that *he winked*

Dem: *shaking his head, a smile on his lips* so tell the people what they need to know then

Jeffery: ok, so I’m a vampire and Dem here is a werewolf. Nothing all that exciting, except that Dem’s Alpha is a bit…controlling.

Dem: It’s not just mine, they’re all controlling. They kinda need to be

Jeffery: *waved Dem’s words away with his hand* I don’t really care. I care about you and that’s all, which was made difficult with your alphas stupid rules.

Also, Dem here likes a little pain and submission with his sex, another of those stupid rules and therefore he fought the mate pull and that was…

Dem: *interrupting* fun

Jeffery: *laughs, evil and sexual* yes it was *he learnt over, fingers around Dem’s neck, pulling him closer, devouring his mouth*

Think we lost them. Oh well, here’s an excerpt maybe it’ll help you decide *wink*

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 14

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Excerpt from Tentative Steps Forward

Ben and Shad from Ben’s Wolf Surprise

Please understand this is still in first draft, so there had been no significant editing

Womp womp womp womp.

Holy shit.

Womp womp womp womp.

Ben held his breath, then realised it probably wasn’t a good idea since he had a baby inside him. Living, growing. Heartbeat. A heartbeat.

Ben’s chest hurt, heaved as he looked at the machine where the sound was coming from.

Womp womp womp.

Muffled but in turn. Ben wanted to believe the sound wasn’t coming from inside him, but at this point there wasn’t any denying it.

Was he still denying this pregnancy thing? Probably, it wasn’t like he’d ever thought he’d be pregnant. But shit man, there was a heartbeat coming out of his belly.

A heartbeat.

Holy shit.

Shad took in a deep breath next to him, sighing it out in a soft wistful breeze.

Ben lower lips wobbled, his eyes became pools.

God he was a sappy bastard.

Huh. He was pregnant. With a baby. His and Shad’s baby.

Heavy shit.

The lady took the microphone off his stomach and Shad ran his hand against the pale skin, slowly. So slowly, it felt like awe as he leant down and gave Ben a soft kiss on the lips.

“Can you believe it?”

“No.” Ben laughed against a sob.

“So everything seems fine. You and your baby are healthy.”

Ben took in a huge breath as he sat himself up. He nodded as got up, because he didn’t know what to say. Not sure what he was meant to say.

“Good.” Shad did that sigh again, his hand ran up and down Ben’s back. He was comforting, made him not want to curl up in the other man’s lap and just stay there until all of this was over. But not, plenty more to do today, this week, the months to come.

The lady with the machines messed around then, fixing everything up so she could trot back towards her side of the lot, back towards the Cameron Pack house, leaving them alone in the shell they were going to call home.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 13

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A Special Day

Mike & Coi from My Outside My Inside

“Hey I believe its my birthday today.” Mike exclaimed, excited in a way he’d not been in a long time, and yet it was like every other year this time came alone. A nod at the acknowledgment of a day without a need for much more. Maybe an acknowledgment of what he’d come to realise.

“Birthday?”

“Yeah, you know a celebration of your birth.”

“I still don’t understand.” Which Mike could believe, the alien looked completely confused.

“You were born right?”

“Of course.” Like Mike was the crazy one. He shook his head at the idea.

“Well, that’s your birthday.”

“Why….” He shook his head. “I still don’t…”

Mike laughed softly, shaking his head with the movement. “It’s probably a human thing.”

“Yeah, you guys do—”

“Be careful, buddy,” Mike poked his big lug in the arm, hurting his fingers on the hard skin covering his mate. “You don’t wanna know another human thing—the doghouse.”

Coi’s eyebrows crunched together.

“Trust me, big guy, you don’t wanna know. Just smile, tell me ‘happy birthday’ and kiss me.”

“Okay.” Still confused but Coi smiled around it as he wrapped his arms around Mike, bringing him closer. “Happy birthday.”

His kisses still made Mike hard. 

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 12

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3 years later ….

Matt and Paul from Love Without Knowing It

It was always nerve-wracking sitting in a doctor’s office. Always the same things tried to push themselves into Paul’s head even as it drowned them out by repeating the same bullshit over and over

It was going to be okay. Matt was going to be fine.

And he was. That’s the thing. This was just a routine check-up. The only reason he was here with Matt was because he’d had the day off and they were going to the movies after.

“Matthew,” came the doctor’s voice.

“You comin’?”

“What me to?” Matt nodded. “Then yes.” he got up and they headed into the doctors room.

It didn’t take them long to come back out. The whole sitting in the waiting room longer then you’re with the doctor working it’s magic.

The relief though, when they walked out made everything worth it. Matt was free and fine and he wouldn’t have to be back for another 2 years for more testing. Unless something came up, but really that was what doctors said to cover their arses.

Paul couldn’t keep the grin off his face as they headed toward the car. And once they’d reached the semi privacy of the in-closed space he pulled Matt in close and kissing him hard. Happy and light and feeling the stress and worry he’d been holding on his shoulders come off.

Matt chuckled once they pulled away, and turned towards the steering wheel, car on and backed out.

“So food or movies first?”

“Hm…you hungry?”

“Meh, I could eat but popcorn would tie me over if need be.”

“Yeah same here, so your choice.”

“Nah-uh, birthday boy’s choice.”

Paul sighed. He had actually forgotten it was his birthday. Hoped Matt would have too. “Fine, let’s go see what times it’s on and decide then.”

Matt laughed. “There one the same time as they were when we looked it up and we can still make the first without a prob.”

“Urgh. Fine, let’s eat first.”

“Okay, where to.”

Paul narrowed his eyes. “You’re really starting to annoy me.”

Matt laughed. The arsehole. But it was who he was and Paul was still too happy. So happy the man he loved was okay. Was better than okay. He was healthy and great and that was everything to Paul

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ April’s Day

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Happy Dirty Thirty

“I’m not awake yet, Paul,” Ethan mumbled into his pillow. Even as he said the words he pressed into the hand on his ass.

Paul kissed his cheek before moving onto his shoulder, and then down his arm. “Awake is more fun, baby.”

“I see you think so.” He lifted his head, watching Paul as he trailed kissed down his back. “Happy Birthday to me.”

“Exactly. Gonna prove to you that thirty is not old.”

“Who said thirty is old?”

“You did. Like twelve times this past week.”

“I like your methods of proving me wrong.”

Paul chuckled and kissed him where his hand had been.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 10

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Shut up!

Gene and Dan from The Rub of My Werewolf

“Oh god will you shut up!” Colin throw a cushion at him from the other side of the room.

“Nope. And not your normal nope, but one with a big fat ‘it’s my birthday and I can do what I want’ nope. And it’s not like this is the first time you’ve seen this movie, so what’s the problem.”

“Unlike you, I don’t actually care for your voice. Why don’t you go and irritate your mate if you aren’t interested”

“What.” Shocked, he even went with a dramatic hand on the chest and huff. “Not interested? That is—”

“Seriously Gene shut the fuck up of fuck off.” Kyle exploded and he was normally able to tone out Gene’s voice completely. Maybe he was talking more than usual but he was waiting for his mate to call him. He was waiting for them to deal with all the bullshit they needed to deal with before Gene got to take him back home to the little house of horrors Dan insisted they live in. Though unlike when they first moved in, now the place was seventy percent cleaned out. Most of the things sorted away, file and what still needed to go through was piled up in the spare room they’d first been in. Apparently getting rid of every bit of furniture had cleansed it enough for his mate. And really ‘house of horrors’ was a cute little title for the place, rather than a reality. They’d even gotten a little plark that sits in the place just above the door where the house name was meant to be. He thought. Really he didn’t give a shit, but it made Dan happy so who was he to argue.

“Gene, you ready?” Dan’s soft voice was spoke behind him as fingers trailed against his neck.

“Yes!” the guys cheered, wankers. He gave them an extra spicy finger.

“See you guys tomorrow morning,” Dan waved as Gene walked out, he’d said enough of a goodbye as any of them were going to get. Until he stepped out the screen door and called out to them while he waiting for Dan to follow him.

“Did you have a nice chat?”

Dan shrugged. “As nice as any could be I suppose, we’ve still got a lot of stuff to deal with and information to sort out. But it’s moving along.”

“You working tomorrow?”

“Yeah, well, Eamon and I want to go over one of the books we found today. It’s a little…intense.”

“Better in the light of day then night, kinda thing?”

Dan smiled, his fingers hooked up Gene’s and pulling them up to his mouth. “Yes. Like a slasher movie.”

“Gross.”

Dan laughed. It was a nice laugh, one that made him tingle every time he managed to get the guy to produce it.

“So what do you have planned for tonight, if you’re working tomorrow?” Gene waggled his brow at his mate, hoping he wasn’t going to be brushed aside. But he didn’t think so, it felt like a night of shared body heat.

“I’m not sure, what are you thinking?” Dan turned him, hooking his arms around Gene’s neck, pulling him in closer.

Gene laughed, kissing him good and proper, rubbing against Dan, waking them both up. “Maybe a midnight picnic.”

“If you want.”

“A dip in the lake.”

“Okay.”

“A roll around in the sheets.”

“If that’s what you want.”

Gene kissed him again. A deep humming ran though both their bodies. “All I want it you. The rest…oh, who cares, let’s go home and fuck the night away.”

Laughter again. Magic. “That sounds like the best idea you’ve ever had.”

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 9

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The Past

Kyle and Brad from A Werewolf’s Howl

Kyle sighed. He didn’t want to be here. Didn’t want to be standing at his old friend’s gravestone.

Swinging his arms he looked around him, clapping his hands together. Uncomfortable as hell.

Everyone was there. all the guys, wondering around the graveyard, Dan over there looking down at another grave, it seemed important, maybe Kyle should go over there, give him a little moral support?

Arms circled around him, surprising him while setting him down.

“I thought you had to work?”

“I did.” Those arms went tighter, Brad home. “Couldn’t let you do this alone.”

But he had. Years and years he’d left Kyle alone to deal with this day, with this mission he set upon himself.

Kyle lifted his hand, tangling his fingers up with Brad’s as he stared down at the gravestone holding a friend. An old lover. His past. Their past.

His other hand lifted, neck high, a top of the beer bottle he held tilted in a nod. “To you.”

The other echoed him, for themselves, for support.

Brad rumbled behind him, saying words that got caught up in his shoulder.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 8

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Consequences

Adam and Justin from Protecting My Werewolf

“Adam?” Justin asked, shocked at the bright stain of blush against his lovers cheeks and the strain in his pants.

“Yeah?” he looked dazed.

Justin got up, walking over to Adam, hand up waiting for him to get into his arms. “What happened?” he asked Adam squirmed in this grip, his hips knocked against Justin’s. Someone was horny.

“Geez get a room Adam.” One of the others guys said making the rest chuckle.

Adam moaned against his neck, sucking up a mark.

“Come on, then, let’s get that room they speak of.”

“Mm-hm.”

Justin chuckled as he started walking his lover towards the stairs. Kissing him and scrapping against the wall as they went. “Really what’s gotten into you?”

“Chris.”

“Huh.” Huh.

“Had to help him… oh god, I don’t even understand, he was all tied to a bed. Don’t know why it’s made me so hot.”

“Would it be the fact that he’s about to have sex. Or you want me to tie you up.”

“No ropes.” He panted. “Can’t stand… oh god, room now.” He took off, his shirt coming off before he hit the door and then Justin chuckled as he watched him battle his shoes and pants.

“So it was knowing he was about to be fucked that’s gotten you all hot.”

“Maybe.” He mumbled as he pulled Justin’s top off him and then pushed him onto the bed, attacking his pants. “You want your shoes off you better hurry.”

Justin laughed as he toed off his shoes. “You wanna tie me up?”

“No,” he panted, climbing onto of Justin. “Just wanna fuck.”

“Works for me.” He chuckled right up until he moaned as Adam lathered him in lube and sat down on him. Fuck his mate was hot.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 7

Forgive my lateness. yesterday was just too much, and I spent the day keeping my mind on other things. A reminder that at the end you will find the information needed for the giveaway

Present Waiting

Eamon & Chris from Taking Control of my Werewolf

 “Hurry up,” Chris hissed at Adam as his best mate slowly worked his way around the bed, picking up the last cuff and wrapping it around his wrist.

“I don’t know about this.”

“You don’t have to.”

Adam shook his head. “Won’t he be pissed that you’re alone like this?”

“No.” but the door to the bathroom became very fascinating to him.

“He is gonna be pissed, isn’t he?”

“No. seriously, I’ve got this all set, everything is fine.”

“I don’t know…” Adam was just a rule follower. Seriously it was irritating in every light.

“Did it ever accrue to you that I might want to get in trouble.”

“No.”

“Well I do. So either help me or I’ll do it myself and then I definitely won’t be able to get out of these fucking things if need be.”

“Wait. You can get out if you want to.”

“Yeah, if someone else puts them on me, I can grab to tab,” he flicked the tab on the other his other cuff. “And walla I’m free.”

“Oh,” Adam looked closer at the cuff he was wrapping around Chris’ wrist. “I didn’t know you could get ones like that.”

“You can get all types of cuffs. These however were custom made.”

“Huh. Why’d you get them? I’m sure Eamon would never keep you tied up.”

“I got them before Eamon, when I couldn’t trust the person tying me up.”

Adam made a soft noise. “I really hate it that you didn’t come to me for help. I wouldn’t have—”

“What?” Chris laughed softly. “You’re struggling just to tie me up.”

“Ok, but I could have made things safer for you.”

“No you couldn’t and let’s face it I can fend for myself, now hurry up I wanna surprise Eamon for his birthday.”

“Ok, okay I’m done, here.”

“Hey Adam,” Chris sounded like he was about to up the ante. “Make sure you grab the corner of the blanket on your way out, would you.”

“Fine.” Adam did as asked, never looking back onto the bed as he did so. “Have a fun night.”

“Plan on it.” Chris smiled.

“Adam, what are you doing in my room?” Eamon’s voice sounded in the hall, deep and full of command. Chris had a lot of fun this arvo and most of it had been sent on through to Eamon’s phone and it sounded like he enjoyed the visual just as much as Chris enjoyed doing it.

“Oh, ah….night.” Chris could hear the blush paining Adam’s face. It probably didn’t help that he knew, or at least had an understand of what Eamon was about to find and what would happen afterwards.

“Okay…” Eamon sounded perplexed. “Is Chris in there?”

There was something said, probably an agreement, because he could hear the sound not the words. And then Eamon was inside the room, the door still open as he stood there, looking at Chris on the bed, his arms cuffed to the headboard. His calves tied to his thighs, a plug in his arse, a ring bundled up his balls.

“What’s this?” Eamon stepped further in, eyes still devouring Chris while he closed the door, clicking the lock.

“Happy birthday.” He smiled.

Eamon copied it, as he walked over to the side table pulling a black cloth Chris left out of him. “And isn’t it a pretty present you’ve gotten me.”

“For starters.” As really the night was still so very young.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 6

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Date Night

Johan & Scott from The Way Life Turns

“You want to go out on a date?”

“Of course,” Scott spoke as he pulled his top over his head. “It’s my birthday and I want to go out on a date.”

“Well, it is your day so I’m not going to stop you, but why a date?”

“We’ve never actually been on one.”

“Yes we….have.” Scott’s brow rose before he’d finished.

Okay, so clearly we hadn’t. Not really. Not a one on one date. They’d been friends before dating so they seemed to have skipped that part.

“What kind of date are you thinking?”

“I don’t know. Dinner. Steak house, maybe. Movies. There’s gotta be something half decent on.”

“Ok, then. It’s your birthday you can chose what we do.” then mumbling. “Don’t understand why dinner and a movie needs to be labelled a date.”

Scott surprised him by wrapping his arms around his chest and pulling him in. “Because I wanted it be all romantic and shit and not have you treat it like we’re a couple of mates out for the night.”

“There’s a different.” Cause he didn’t see one. It wasn’t like they’d be making out or only noticing themselves.

“There already is one.” Scott smile gave Johan a headache, made him want to hit the bastard.

“So…do you want your present before or after?”

“After. I want to unwrapped it then you.”

Johan chuckled, shaking his head. “Okay.” His boyfriend was a little weird. But then he already knew that going in so it wasn’t a big surprise. 

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 5

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Little Steps

John and Mita from Outside Sanity

John stepped out of the corridor he’d been standing in for longer than he’d admit. He kept telling himself it wasn’t scary but his feet wouldn’t move. Until they did.

The space was huge. Clean. Minimal. He wasn’t sure what he was expecting but this wasn’t it.

He lingered, not sure of his welcome, even after his mate assured him again and again.

John stepped forward, bring Mita in view. He stood still, staring at the big alien filling out a large chair that seemed to sit above the stars. He couldn’t get over how beautiful it all was. How he could see it now for the beauty it was.

Mita’s chair swirled around and it took everything in John not to step back.

His eyes scanning the area, did he know John was there? Possible. Because he found him. Found him and smiled a smile that was only for John. It lit up his face. Made John’s heart beat and his own lips pull up in a smile to match.

It was natural. Real. Home.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ April’s Day

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Surprises are not my Friend

Yes, you heard that right. I’m not good with surprises even those that aren’t for me. I’ve heard people say, “I love surprise”. To those people I say, “Shut up!” Just recently, Bronwyn and I had this conversation:

Bronwyn: My family says they have a surprise for my birthday. It’s got to be something big because they all went in together.

Me: What do you think it is? (What I’m thinking: A surprise! I must know immediately or it’s going to drive me crazy.)

Bronwyn: No clue.

Me:….(Well shit)

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 3

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Seductive Walk

Phil & Craig from Seeking My Werewolf

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Day 2

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Tick Tock

Tim and Colin from Forever With My Werewolf

“You know I’ve not really gotten over Christmas yet.” Tim spoke as he carefully walked his way down the hallway, a blindfold over his eyes putting him at the mercy of his mate, Colin. He gripped his hand tightly around those strong fingers, and tried his hardest to remember that there was nothing to worry about.

Nothing to worry about.

Sweat pulled up on his body. He started to shake, really shake, as tears leaked out of his eyes.

They stopped and Colin’s fingers came up to the blindfold.

“No. No. I’m fine, I can do this.”

“No you can’t.” Colin’s voice was soft, barely there. As arm rushed against his heated face before it was pushed into the fur of Colin’s chest. “There’s no shame, especially after what you’ve been through.”

“But no one’s allowed to know.” He pushed down the urge to cry. He didn’t want to feel this way. Didn’t want to deal with it.

“No problem.” He whispered, lifting Tim’s face up so they could lock gazes. Tim took a breath as Colin slowly leant down, so slow, pacing himself—savouring.

Lips brushed his. A soft brush that Tim pushed up into, wanting more even when he knew Colin wouldn’t give it to him. They’d been through this dance before. Every time Tim reacted badly from his time with the kidnappers.

He so wished he could have been normal. That he could just let it all wash off him.

“Come on,” Colin spoke against Tim’s lips before turning Tim around and putting his hands over his eyes.

Pink light was all Tim saw through the gaps of his fingers, along with the smell of his lover, making he relax which he was still blindfolded. The heat of Colin’s body warmed him up and made him feel save and sounds and his heart to beat in a different way. He knew what was behind the door, understood the surprise, that clearly something was happening which made his excited, though he would be happy if he’d walked in the next door just to see his family and friends were there to celebrate him.

The door was pushed open by Colin’s foot, Tim knew because he felt it as he moved around him.

“Surprise!”

Oh. Oh. Wow. His smiled hurt his face as it widened.

Happy Birthday to Me ǀ Let’s Begin

 

Welcome to my birthday party. This is the year I turn 30 which is a pretty big deal really. For this birthday I had to put this party up on my blog because my computer is having problems and isn’t able to deal with the amount of uploading this type of things need.

A party is about fun, and winning things and this party isn’t any different.

Warning, you will like the shorts more if you have read the books themselves but I do hope you are able to get a taste and maybe want to learn a little more.

And lastly I really hope you enjoy it’s running until the release of Taking A Stand on the 21st of June

At the end you will find the information needed for the giveaway

Loving Matt

Matt and Jex from Loved by A Werewolf

Hop for Visibility Awareness and Equality

Hi! Welcome to the Hop for Visibility Awareness and Equality. You might know them as the Hop Against Homophobia, Bi and Transphobia.

Hop for Visibility, Awareness & Equality Official Site

Their mission statements (find here): “The mission of Hope for Visibility, Awareness, and Equality is to foster an environment of inclusion and positivity within the LGBTQI+ community. We hope to bring awareness to discrimination and celebrate our diversity not only within the community at large but within our own genres and books. We also hope to engage authors, readers, bloggers, and artist to get involved in ending discrimination while promoting visibility, awareness and equality for all sexual orientations and gender identifications.”

It’s International Day Against Homophobia, Transphobia and Biphobia

It always fascinates me that we call hatred a phobia. I’m not sure when it happened or why. But I’d guess it came around the time when saying you feared it meant you had an excuse to kill it.

I’m going to go off course a little, but I fear spiders. It’s irrational, they’ve never done anything to me, and yet I squeal and make a huge fuss whenever one is near me. The bigger the more I fear it. And for a long time, hell, until recently I said I hated them. I hated spiders. It wasn’t until the last time we had a spider in our house and the first thing my children did was tell me to kill it. Just like that, as if it wasn’t anything in it. As if it’s life didn’t deserve to be lived because I was scared. The same thing happened on facebook. I put a picture up of the nasty looking beast and suddenly my comments were filled with death. Everyone screaming (in a sense) for it to be dead. To be cast from the world because we have a fear.  

The thing is I do honestly fear spiders. I don’t know why. There’s no reason behind it. They scare the shit out of me to a point where I sweat. I shake and I break down completely just from seeing one. Just from knowing it’s around. To be honest, because it was in my bathroom, the room where my toilet was, I stop going until I was about to burst and even then I had real thoughts of just wetting myself, or going outside and peeing, because I couldn’t handle being in the same room as this spider.

That’s what fear is. That’s what we are saying these people are. That we are to a point of breaking down in fear at the idea of someone having a different sexuality to ourselves, a different idea of what we want them to be. Of what we assume they should be, because we’ve been told countless times that there is only one way of seeing things, one way of living. And yet if you were a straight white couple then you’re allowed to break the mould a little by wearing all black or dying your hair, of having children young of not having them at all. You’re allowed to break that mould because deep down you’re still in it. You’re still what other people want you to be.

The thing is, no one is that anymore—hell, no one has been that since the 70’s and yet we are still so clueless as to anything outside ourselves while we judge everyone who isn’t exactly the same as what we are. And that’s not fear, that’s saying you’re allowed to call it fear which makes it irrational which then allows you to never actually look outside yourself and learn something new. Something that you should already know, which is that it’s none of your business, nothing outside yourself is your business.

It’s hatred. It’s hatred labelled as fear because they want the world to stay blind and to create war and hunger and class. That’s what it is, calling it fear is allowing the world to strip us of our rights as equals and allows us to class someone as lesser then they are, and if you’re lesser that means you don’t actually deserve the common decency all human beings should get.

And apparently this is a strong point for me, but you know what I’m not sorry and I’m sick of the fact that we call something a phobia when it’s purely hate. Hate designed to make those less educated follow the rolls of people who should know better and should teach them better.

Giveaway

First Prize: 1 random winner will get paperback of BonyDee Press Anthology (if wish for it signed, you will have to allow for extra time in delivery)

Second Prize: 2 random winners will get 2 e-books from my backlist 

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